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A few times now I have seen the end to something before it ever came to pass. I took in a deep breath and enjoyed it. The smell of the ocean and the mist at my face. Savour those moments to the end. You never know when it will end.

I fell asleep to your cry and still to this day sometimes I wonder why? I thought I was learning what it takes to be a father, instead the path of a man.  That night we held him in our arms, never did I think that would be the last. The purest of memories in my mind, the moment of the riches joys. To look into her eyes and see my son’s reflection. At the time I could have savoured this moment more.  I unfortunately live with this regret.

The band-aide of choice was to honor every moment as if it was my last. My full attention and concentration whenever I noticed I was slacking. Difficult for a ADHD kid at times, but thru time I have seen mass progression. Deepening the bond I have to offer to others.

The Sun was setting on the stern as we headed back to dock for the season. Oh the mist was so refreshing when it  hit my face. I had just raised the tuna poles and securing them tightly with the well worn rope. The soot from the exhausted covered my hands, I felt like it would be my last for a while, so I took another deep breath. My exhale was appreciation for this experience. What a wild ride this life has thrown at me and I am still standing here in a crow’s nest 30 ft off the water.

I like to think God puts us thru trials and we fail. We fail alot, repeatedly over and over again because we are stuck in our ways, fear change, but envy it. GET BACK UP...HEARD IN THE back of my head.  This repeated failure built the author of this post up from some dense ashes. I was lost in my own world of confusion trying to find a cure in all the wrong places. Then a random stranger who became brother introduced me to God right when I needed it. Someone to talk to….

His family opened their arms to me and at times,  I let them down like a son. But they taught me  my failures are my challenges and my challenges are my goals.  Mike and Diane will forever hold a special spot in my heart for introducing me to a saviour. The path I was walking was a dark suicidal. Scared to share for fear of repercussions. They LOVED me unconditionally and supported me with anything I ever wanted to do. They offered me rides to church every Sunday for Mass, Wednesday for class and every group event in between. A place to stay and tons of work. So blessed to experience them and have some formal introduction to God. Even if in the end I am just talking to myself at night. Its working…

As I reach my goals I run alongside others who are racing thru this universe, but I feel alone at times. I am blessed to have a healthy balance of friendship in my life. Those friends held me at my worst and praised me at best. Many tried to help and connect with me, but I pushed you away at times to hide in my solitude.I felt like I was a burden upon others and felt safe alone. Covering my emotions with hobbies, study, business.

When your alone, the voices come out to play. These voices try to play with me  from time to time now, but I have tools now to combat them. WE NEED QUIET ALONE TIME TO FEEL THOSE VOICES.  It’s amazing what life offers you when you keep in the back of your mind, someone is looking out for you. The Tone of the voice changes from a negative to a positive vibe. Encouraging and supportive. Let that new tone be God, Jesus, Buddha, Mohammed, The Universe, Your higher self or Ricky Bobby. It truly does help to just have some faith in something, not to mention yourself.

Don’t let me kid you or display my avatar “LAMBO” or fancy heal yourself blog. I can barely focus to type with the tears in my eyes. I had to stop proofreading to control myself and maintain. I have posted alot on this blog over the last 3 years and this is by far the toughest one to share. The most emotions I have allowed myself to feel in a long time. Did not even notice It was building up momentum inside of me.

Each year is different for me and always hits me at a angle I was not covering or prepared for. Once again left alone by choice in confusion and aloneness. These are the times I learn from my God the most. My son was was an angel sent here as my wake up call. Without the event taking place, would I be who I am now? I don’t think so. I was a stubborn boy who needed a powerful event to change my ways. That it did.

The military definitely taught me to maintain/Conceal my emotions. When you’re responsible or leading others in the military you have to keep it TOGETHER for the sake of the team. This is great character traits when your the man of the house. As long as you know how to open up to someone you confide in. Cons I have learned are bottling things up and cause long term mental issues if not SELF-TREATED. Not medicated, but thru self-awareness and evaluations. AKA  a journal.

I don’t think a journal is something that just works with a few people.I think only a few people are willing to make a journal work.

 

This was a tuff blog post write and I feel so much better now that I could share this with you. The things I do are not required, but they have helped me, maybe they will help you.

 

Be Strong for others

Colton

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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How hard are you working?

Posted: February 27, 2017 in Self-Help, Self-Love
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Life is so short… work your butt off

Today As I got a haircut, I saw a gray hair fall on my  pant leg… I did not know what to think.

My thoughts raced around like a bubbly little boy and then it clicked. I earned that gray hair. I might have got in while having patience for others. Maybe when I was training my dog and he was so stubborn. However It got there, I earned it.

As you go thru life, can you say that about yourself? Do you work your butt off every day and focus on your goals?  Strive to be that individual that shines and turns heads when they walk in. Its confidence that glows so bright for the world to see.  Have faith in yourself and this will encourage others to have faith in themselves.

Change the world, or be changed by the world

Noticing the changes

Posted: February 22, 2017 in joy, love, Self-Help, Self-Love
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Living out our lives day by day and hour by hour. We dont see our changes that happen daily within our soul until we get that chance. That chance to have something to compare it too… difficult concept. Comparing yourself to a prior self and being able to notice the changes. Don’t ever compare yourself to others use yourself as a reference. 

How the heck do we look at ourselves in that prior mindset with the mindset we currently have? 

I believe we have two options and maybe more. But the ones that have worked for me so far;

Journaling — this gives me something to look back upon seeing a date and time remembering my emotions then. Most of the time when I use this method I end up staring at what I wrote and just off shocked where my mindset was at the time. After doing this several times I realized just how crazy I am. Sometimes it’s best to Journal and not let the world be exposed to things you can handle in your own mind.

Outside Support—  I recently had a chance to spend time with somebody who’s known me almost going on a decade. All the things my friend told me of the way I’ve acted in the past leave me in awe and shock. Disappointed in my prior self, but proud of this new me. When somebody who cares has known you a long time you can use this resource to better yourself. Ask them things that you could do to be a better person or better the relationship. Learn to vocalize your needs and emotions in a productive manner.


Cant do it all alone

We cant do this thing called life alone. Even with the Journaling tool. We still have a need to connect, a need to be understood, a need to feel wanted and appreciated. We can appreciate ourselves and we should!  But when someone else does it, it creates magic in my heart. Sparks a fire and ignites my world.  Do you let those around you know how appreciated they are? Make sure they do. Sometimes we forget to tell them and assume they know. As humans… we need to express that to each other.

Be open

When you ask for someones opinion. Keep in mind. That is THIER opinion. You can not argue with a opinion of someone. That is theirs to keep and mold as they please. We all have that right in life. But their opinion does not have to become your own. We have the power to better our selves and only the few will ever take advantage of that. When you start noticing the transition from boy to man or girl to woman.. You can take pride in your changes. Taking pride will boost self confidence and keep you grounded when others attempt to untack you from your goals. Be strong and vigilant as well transgress through our day!  

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Looking back on prior years I am shocked at my paper trail I have left here on this blog. I would never in my life claim to be a writer, but I write. Sometimes I have a way with words or a neat little play on them. But this blog is littered with spelling and grammar errors. I recognized my illiteracy and set out to practice. Practice as much as possible, whenever possible.

The birth of Naturopathic Paladin has given me the chance to write whenever I have a spare moment. A paragraph here and there over the course of 2 years has allowed over 200 articles to be posted on this blog. Alot of the articles are deep, mental thinkers and poems. Videos that I have watched and given paragraph summary. As you can see, I have been practicing. I still have alot to learn and practice to achieve literacy I am happy with but you get the point I hope.

Even if no one else sees it for me, I am going to see it for myself. Investing in my mind, even when I was homeless backpacking in the woods. Don’t give up your precious time to things that don’t nurture your soul. Life will always have its ups and down and all arounds. You won’t fall off the ride if you don’t let go. Be better today, then you were the day before.

Find something you want to learn. Become a violinist or start a playing the guitar. Become better at math by adding numbers together you see everyday in your head. Your all so talented and blessed individuals. So start thinking about your dream and know that its possible. Your going to enter alot of setbacks and defeat. But you will learn so much about yourself in the process. The earth is limitless for us and soon we will see it in ourselves.

Thank you for the time you took to visit my blog and I urge you to self educate.

NATUROPATHIC PALADIN

One persons trash is anothers persons treasure. Unfortunately we treat our relations with others in this manner. When we feel like someone’s trash let’s  think of how many people are happy you became single. Hence you become a new treasure!

Now what about when we are single? What should we do to maintian sanity?

I know somethings that never were beneficial;
Hunting– term used to find potential partners at a bar or event.
Looking for love in general has never been very profitable. The love we seek seems to just happen at the drop of a dime on a randomized day. Unpredictable in nature, but just as beautiful as nature when it blooms.
Facebook trolling/scrolling- wasting most of the day trying to connect with people I never was ment to connect with.
Random messages- Seriously think of how many messages girls/guys get from creepy individuals, alot. This also has not been a good investment of energy.
Getting Butt Hurt- when you send this random message and she/he does not respond. Don’t be a rude and blame them for your insecurities.
Naughty pictures- a warning to both genders, others will see your goodies. Girls are even starting to post the penis pictures to facebook. Best not to EVER do this.

Depression/crazy- if she/he dont respond to your messages or you have issues with how fast they respond. You need to be single. See below, how to build a lofe to be proud of. See how long your depression lasts when you accomplish some goals.

Being single gives you more time to mature as an adult and to properly get to know who you are and what you actually want in life… Both single and taken have their pros and cons. But no matter what you’re feeling on your single status, one thing remains true: you are free. This freedom seems like eternal prison sometimes, but its good for you to grow without relationship influence. Learn what you love, discover your goals and ambitions, and write down your priorities.

Tackling the world may seem like a never ending task,  cause it is until you die. Get used to handling stress and trials on your own. Building this confidence up is nothing but sexy to those who pursue you in the shadows. We all have secret admirers that have been too shy to speak up. Keep that in mind when you feel like a lonely little duck. Keep pushing thru life building your empire of your dreams. Pursuing your life goals will attract the right energy you need to succeed.

Sometimes we fall in love and its nothing but a toxic relationship. Energy draining and consumed by negitive emotions. How can one succeed? Dont keep anything that does not nourish your soul, hold fast to all that does.

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Build a life to be proud of
Do you play the guitar? Maybe learn so you can share.
Write poetry? Don’t be scared to share
Are you a history nut? Expand your knowledge deeper.
Do you volunteer? Kindness is sexy.

My point is to learn something… learn something you can teach or share with your partner.
Don’t be boring,  get some hobbies.

Are you ready to date?
Do you have income?
Transportation?
Know how to love?
Know yourself?
Know your boundaries?
Are you happy being alone?
Do you need someone or want someone?

When one or more of these is lacking, chances are your better off without the distraction until you gain control of your life.

Being single is a great time to be you! So many options!

If your recently single and wondering “what the hell happened?”  You or your partner were lacking. Self-healing starts at self-respect, self-reliance and self-love. You attract the energy you put out, be wise to your energy investments and don’t be self-loathing.wp-1467331473224.jpg

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Self-hatred (also called self-loathing) refers to an extreme dislike or hatred of oneself, or being angry at or even prejudiced against oneself.

If you dont love yourself, no one else will either.

Be strong my readers, hope you enjoyed this 🙂

 

Naturopathic Paladin

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Family and friends,
Today is always hard for this Paladin. Today my son would be 5 and man have I had plenty of time to think about it. Each and every year on this day I shed a tear or more.  This year is powerful, coming to terms with reality it feels like. But I know that I can do it. I can be a great influence in a young childs mind. I have patience that is unmatched by most. This trait came from many years of beating myself up over what happen.

No one has been here to tell me how to feel, what to say or what to do. Each and every post here on this blog has been a test to see if it would help. Help me understand the meaning in all that has become of the event. Help me find light when I was in a dark place. I truly don’t know where I would be without people who love me. You reminded me of my purpose here on earth,  ensured me that this was a new beginning. Here I am 4 years latter with a blessed life and still looking back on that life changing event. I thought that was the end of the world! But here I am, alive and sharing my story.

I have the worst grammar in the world and google is my best friend for spelling. These challenges dont slow down my momentum. Sometimes I just need to get out some words to assist myself understand something that I am feeling. Thank you for supporting me and loving me.
Grab a child today and love on em for me 🙂

To the many people in my life, I got something to say.
“You have a beautiful heart.”
“You are an amazing friend.”
“You’re a wonderful mother.”
“You inspire me.”
“Your work on that project was incredible.”
“You’re a great listener.”
You’re a really strong person!

If the compliment fits, it was ment for you.
Have a blessed day people
PALADIN

Posted: May 17, 2016 in Facebook qoutes, Self-Help, Self-Love
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This is so true…
Think about the things you say no to becuase you KNOW it will change everything.
A new career that you turned down.
A new relationship rejected
A decision to apologize for long forgotten offenses
Maybe a wrong choice in the people you surround yourself with

All of us say we can’t find that one person to be with, but we have. We were just to scared to go after it. I personally have chased a girl to only find out the grass was not greener over here. Just becuase some one is beautiful does not mean their soul is. But they still need to be shown love, you might be the only one to ever do it. Be the example for all! Stop judgment of people and accept them… the good and the bad. Be the example! Stop saying she looks foul in those pants. Be the example! 

If your not happy in life. START LOVING DEEPER PEOPLE!  KILL THEM WITH KINDNESS!
Don’t harbor the negitive energy,  the drama that consumes our soul.

Bad thing happens— rolls off shoulder—> Good thing happens 🙂
Loves you 😇

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This facebook post was raw and intriguing! I felt it would resonate with my readers on a deeper level. Those that are sensitive to our environmental influences can use this advice to see your worth. Building your self-esteem should be high on the priority list. Let this young woman inspire you to push beyond your hypothetical limits.

We enjoy her and hope you do as well
Naturopathic Paladin

Reader advisory; strong language

“Maybe you should stop and think about your actions and the potential negativity you spread as a result of your happiness.”

…That’s something I was “told” today after stating how important it is to remain a good person even when people fuck you over…

I found this statement to be quite interesting.. Who’d have thought trying to be a good person, was nothing short of a bad thing?..

The small mindedness of people fuckin amazes me… Lets just get some shit straight, the only thing wrong with this world, is the shitty people who hurt others and make bullshit excuses for themselves.

HOLD YOUR GODDAMN SELVES ACCOUNTABLE AND BE A DECENT FUCKING HUMAN BEING. Being a shitty person, is a choice. Just as being a happy, loving and all around good person is…

So, in light of the backlash and all around bullshit I’ve received in the past couple days, I’d like to highlight my “negativity inducing ignorance” and push back against the bullshit… I’d like to push back against the shitty people of the world… I’d like to extend a little bit of love. I’d like to spread a little fuckin positivity…

Anyone can hurt someone. Anyone can be a bad person… But It takes someone special to do and be good. It takes someone special to put forth the effort to make the world a better place, no matter how seemingly small the effort is..

People are gonna knock you down, do your best to leave them behind and focus on the good… You can still do good. You can still be good…

You, YES YOU, are beautiful beyond measure…
And you, YES YOU have the power to be better than those who have wronged you…

Middle fingers up, yo. Good people are of value… Be of value…

Have you ever met that boy or girl that swept you up faster then you could figure out? Maybe a future promotion has you wondering what life will turn too if you get that raise? But what what if you dont sweep that boy or girl off their feet and your left sitting in the rain? Those future ideas that played in your head when you first tripped possibly set expectations that left your heart wide open to appear as failure in your own mind.

“There are two ways to be happy: improve your reality or lower your expectations.”

1. Nothing lasts forever, not jobs, not toys, cars, relationships or life.
– Things will fail, break, shatter, crumble and just disappear.

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I love how this photo puts some releif in your heart when you think about all the things you felt like youndeserged but never received. Bigger better plan for you 🙂

– This is a renewal process that makes room for bigger and better opportunities.
– Accept it with a open heart.

2. Optimism is required to be successful
– Dont fret when you break your cell phone screen. Maybe its time for a new phone.
– Remember last time you could not find your car keys? Maybe that few mins saved you from a car blowing threw a stop light.

3. Your not a victim
One big problem a lot of people have is that they slip into thinking of themselves as victims that have little or no control over their lives. In this headspace you feel sorry for yourself, the world seems to be against you and you get stuck. Little to no action is taken and you get lost in a funk of sadness and self-pity. You either have to be the victim or you have to be causing pain.

5. Forgive
“When you hold resentment toward another, you are bound to that person or condition by an emotional link that is stronger than steel. Forgiveness is the only way to dissolve that link and get free.” Catherine Ponder

Let this be a kickstart for your heart in the pursuit of Joy 🙂

Naturopathic Paladin

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Very beautiful soul wrote this and it helped me out in the time of need. I hope it finds you on this beautiful day and then all  tears and rains you wash the way to be filled with new life being grown full of green new love

Naturopathic Paladin