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Dreading seeing you because I have to leave. Dreading the moment our lips part  during our final kiss. My wee little heart is gonna burst into tears and resort to tons of beers! My spring has been loaded with smiles of joy. Thank you for running with love and not looking back.  Trusting your heart and openly loving. Scary moments when you realised you fell for my smile made me fall deeper for your soul. Trust me, this spiritual spiral is intense for me as well. But ill give anything to hold on to these butterflies.

So now I depart this desert Oasis and soon return to my sea. My sea of joy and harbor full of peace. Spinning fire on the beach and running in the rain. Drinking my coffee every morning as I watch them off load today’s catch. This peace is hard to compete and the sea lions never miss their beat. One day I will return, untill then ill keep spinning this love churn 🙂



Aquarius woman evolves….Once she trusts you and you two grow closer, she is an amazing loyal and kindhearted person. She will always seem to be detached, she fears losing her identity in a relationship so do not be surprised if even in a long term relationship she seems more like a friend then a romantic partner. Do not press her emotionally or tie her down with demands and obligations because this will cause her to run. Never be jealous, this is a big red flag to her and she will leave right away, the Aquarius woman can never be tied down, she is free as a bird. If you give her all she needs, she will be completely faithful so you should not worry when she is out on her own, give her space and respect her privacy and all will be well. Aquarius woman is for the man who loves a challenge and adventure. Shes not gonna give it to me easy  and i like it that way. 🙂

Are you struggling at showing people you care about that you really do care. Start listening to them in a new way. This Ted talk really helps the mind explore some of the other perspectives to life, the people you talk to. So next time you have a moment with another human. Learn to listen fully and with an open mind. Maybe you will get past some road blocks that have hindered you before. Take a stand and be there for someone. Who knows maybe one day you may need someone to listen to you. Many blessings world and I hope this video helps you in your healing 🙂

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Very beautiful soul wrote this and it helped me out in the time of need. I hope it finds you on this beautiful day and then all  tears and rains you wash the way to be filled with new life being grown full of green new love

Naturopathic Paladin

To those that helped me,

Boy am I thankful for you being there for me. Those times would have been a lot harder without your help and support. The very small things you did were so simple and mundane to you. For me it was a blessing from above. You have been a Godsend in my life at the right moment. Everything you do I do my best to see and honor.

At times I fall short in your eyes and this saddens my heart. I get fearful and embarrassed to see your face because I see my faults that have hurt you. I fall short when I let fear of understanding get in the way. Scared that you won’t accept me after my mistake. Fear that you will label me as an excuse maker or procrastinator. These thoughts plague my mind from time to time and I push past them with the best wisdom I have. Doing what I can do to make it right, even if it’s just with words. Leaving me with a plague of guilt. So I will always try to heal any hurt I have created for you.

But if we are gonna be friends I need you to understand something. I’m struggling right now to keep food cold that I get from the foodbank. The issue is the rocks in the soil when I go to dig below the frost level. The mountains of Idaho are loaded with gemstones and other treasures that make digging such a daunting task.  One can use the creek to cool food items. With the sun counteracting the cooling it sometimes leads to spoiling. But what do I do when I come back to town? Well things tend to spoil no matter what I do right now. I don’t want this for our friendship as well when I can’t tend to it. I shy from speaking to you sometimes so I’m not a burden that I know you will race to help. Your a great person full of love and sometimes I don’t feel worthy of it because of fear.

You deserve the best a person can offer I feel. Sometimes I can’t offer much as a friend and feel bad hanging out cause you give so much. I make note for the day I can pay you back in my mind. I want to offer you some food and a place to stay. I want to offer you a place to earn money. I want to give back what you have gave to me and more. You are a light in my life and I will always honor you for the good deeds you have done. Never condemn you for frustration you have shown me at times. You were there for me when I needed help. Everyday is a new struggle in my world. But that’s the expence I paid to be able to reach this mindset and actually care if I hurt you.

It may seem at times that I don’t respect you when I don’t agree with what you have to say. With all my power I always did my best to neutralize a heated situation. Using a calm and confidently delivered phrase, such as “that’s really rude and you need to back off,”  it shows you I am willing to stand up for myself. It also displays my unwillingness to play the role of your verbal punching bag. I have been around that quite a bit and allowing it to exist in my life is how I got to this low point in the first place. So when you see this side of me feel proud that I am growing up and developing self-respect while having nothing.

If you have the ability to speak with me then you will know a few of my struggles I have created for myself. But to the outside world and Facebook a display of positive outlooks and trying to be a rock for others. I struggle with loneliness, abandonment, and all sorts of things. That does not define me as a person and I have asked those who are not good for my spiritual development to not understand and disappear from my life. Attachment to something that does not unconditionally love me is easy for me now that I see it good for me. So I find the time and the wifi to write you back on Facebook. Let it be known that it was a trial to do it. I’m more focused on where I am staying that night. Sometimes I dont have wifi and can’t fill you in. Thank you for when this happens and you understand.

I am thankful for your help and I don’t want it without earning it. I don’t want it held over my head like it has been in the past when small frustrations come up. Those negative words you share about who I am can have a profound effect on my self-esteem since they are coming from a friend I choose to have in my life. I WILL MAKE MISTAKES right now alot… I’m not very reliable right now with my mind focused on survival. My belly at times grumbles and makes me hangry, those days seem the ones I am tested. My temper is put to the test and I refrain my best for using my situation as an excuse. So I escape to solitude which is good and bad for me.

I feel in my solitude I do not consume the help of others. I am self-sufficient and have a vast knowledge on edible food in the woods. The city is different for me and its designed to spend money/make money/have transportation. These are my difficult tasks I am learning to overcome. The bus route for example shuts down at 6pm and wrecks havoc on planning for things. This is a issue that no one else has to handle in my world. They don’t know the feeling of riding the bus or running 4 miles to meet a deadline. With a few things over my head I am still hammering away at.. Soon Ill be able to be a better friend to you and show you the true person I am when I am not in a humbled learning phase of my life. I’m learning to keep up with expectations people set when I don’t have the means of completing them. Ill get it down, Just new to it.

I have never been in this type of hole with not a lot of options. So I am running on trial and error everyday. So thank you fro understanding when it takes forever to get back to you. I’m just struggling right now and don’t want tell you more than “I’m doing great”. I’ll get out of it and take flight like before. You’re my hero and Ill do my best to make things right one day for any offences. Be kind with your words and please be understanding that I’m working at it.

Ill do my best to respond and not make promises I can’t keep in fear of your judgement of my failure. I want to be the best for you and myself. I’m on it and gonna make it.

The iris’s history is rich, dating back to Ancient Greek times when the Greek Goddess Iris, the messenger of the gods and the personification of the rainbow, acted as the link between heaven and earth.

To the most Beautiful Iris I have ever seen.

Just tiny and small like a little bean

Your really never very clean

But you hold my heart on beams

Let this be your only love note

For All the boys I’ll choke 🙂

Where she came from and how I never saw her before. So beautiful and a pure heart. The laugh could make the hardest of faces smile. Like a thief in the night she came for my heart and I gave it up without a fight. She reminded me of the pure love that children have to offer us adults.

Every little thing was so new and fascinating to her. Showing me the coolest in everything, like a kid again. Opening my heart to receiving unconditional love. Helping me be here now in the moment. So that I do not miss a single cute thing. The blessings she offered me I lack the words for description. I am only left with feelings of intense joy and pure bliss.

The best part to this beautiful Iris is that I get to garden it. I feel like her super hero ready to save the day when I have her in my arms. Latching on to me with extreme joy in her laugh. Being able to make her smile when a tear comes to her eye has been something to be proud of. This Beautiful flower needs so much water(love) and I feel blessed to be able to offer her that in life. I want to protect her in ways that never even be taught. Let her know the signs of danger so that she may flee when need be.

With intention to never to take the place of something else. Only to offer a unique kind of loyal loving friendship with someone she can trust. A helping soul she can run to when the world gets to be too much. I see that to be and even if she is not right next to me I’ll be true as a bee. Ill never flee and always be right next to thee. You bring me so much joy at the thought of your smile. How something so small can have such a large effect on my heart.

If you don’t got an Iris, you need one 

Through its intricate history, the meanings of the iris has come to include faith, hope, and wisdom. Depending on factors such as color and region, irises may bear additional meanings as well. In some parts of the world, the dark blue or purple iris can denote royalty, whereas the yellow iris can be a symbol of passion. Irises may also express courage and admiration.

Have you ever made plans and get them cancelled on you…. and then you make them again only to get cancelled. The person does not even call and let you know to not waste the time waiting on them all day for confirmation. Letting the weekend go by that you set aside to help.

Steps to take:

1: Let it go and understand that your time is not that important to them. They don’t have to respect your friendship, but you don’t have to be their friend either.

2: Don’t give up your time again for that person after you feel the hurt. If you can without appearing needy.
Talk with them

3: Find a guided meditation on YouTube that attracts love. A universal love and not just relationship love.

3: If your really upset… guided mediation on acceptance, grief or forgiveness. It will help you get out of the victim mindset and moves into attracting the loyal friends you need.

4: Go for a run or swimming… burn up some of the chemical that can put you into depression. Cortisol….

5: You have cleared your thoughts and removed yourself from a victim mindset. See that they are the victims cause they don’t get to enjoy you or your time.

6: THANK THE UNIVERSE FOR THE PROTECTION IT OFFERED YOU. Things don’t workout for a reason. If it’s not happening… it’s not ment to be. Maybe you could have been hurt more later on in the friendship.

7: Admire and respect those who DO want to be In your life and respects your time. Shows you the same courtesy you offer.

8: You will never have to chase true love or loyal friends. Keep faith that your worth more than what they have to offer you.

9: Show grace to all you meet, but value your time.

10: Try to be better friends this week to those that are in your life and let go of those who are not to excited to be in yours.

I’m holding out for a hero to sweep me off my feet. Gotta be strong and fresh from the fight. Has to have the intelligence to keep up with the ever-changing world. My feelings will be my guide to knowing your face. The aroma of my hero will be overwhelming with confidence. Has to be larger than life and full of divine love.

I have to feel the nurture of love with every touch. The unconditional loyalty that many dream of and integrity unmatched. Who could deny these butterflies that I have. They inspire me to be greater and go further than the rest. Do what most would fear and finish with a smile.

The miles I will run for your smile to be apart of my night. Adventures I will face on my path to your hand will be filled with heroic and heroism. Having searched the earth for the soul that could harbour mine and been to the darkest woods to find out who I am. My demons were abolished with everlasting light filled with sparkling love.Ill be yours

I am the hero you are holding out for in the night.  The white knight in armor and a dazzling smile to share. I have been the one in your dreams that catches you when you fall. You may have never seen my face but you long for my touch. You dream of eternal joy by my side. Knowing that I will always be there for my hero. People call us the dynamic duo as we conquer the world and its escapades. You be my princess and I’ll be your super man.

We will fly over the cities and drop flowers for couple in love. Seeing the many cultures of this world as we travel in with our love. Marveling at the great pyramids in the background of your smile. How it melts my soul to see you full of joy and to walk the Nile. It felt like I parted the sea when I asked and got down on one knee. The fire in your eyes made me realize we would fly high.

When I stop looking you come sneaking up on my heart. When My eyes stop searching through the crowds they meet yours. At my random moments you capture my attention with little effort. A Piece of my soul found in you. Like a blast blew apart my soul long ago and remains scattered throughout the universe. When the sparkle hits my heart and I feel as if I have known you forever. Each smile you share with me lights a fire I lack the vocabulary to describe.  Could that be you inside that body I see. Is that who you truly are? Do you want to love and learn to love better?

My heart goes out to those that taught me how to love better at the cost of a relationship. I dig deep into the loss and study its lessons. My hopes are to be a better partner and an overall better person. Planting seeds of love through our activities and protecting from seeds of fear. Never to worry if one’s love is true again. For if she runs to another it is only to display her potential loyalty. It shows the integrity she has to offer you. It’s the universe keeping your standards when you become blind to beauty.

Blinded by beauty every moment I look. I fancy your Long, healthy and maintained hair. An authentic smile that leaves me pacing out my words. Some passion and showmanship of your life in every action. I enjoy the rush I get every interaction and find a sweet addiction within her. Seeing her interact with the world marvels my eyes and loses focus for a moment.

She has so much more than attractive looks to offer me. Everyday she is expanding my mind and helping me become a better person. Not thru changes to me, but by example. I have faith that my weakness is only one if I let it be. She helps me see the weaknesses I have thru uncovering the masks I placed on them. Intermixing our duality together for a complete oneness. The feeling of honeymoon as most would call it.

I like to look at the honeymoon as the period of acceptance and unconditional love for all a person has to offer. Once we stop lovingly accepting behaviours of our partner I feel is Key moment we fall out of love. I am glad I found a soul that laughs at me when I misplaced things. Highlighting the good in situations by remembering the lessons. She looks to me with grace and established trust. Knowing that this could be it while accepting that it may not.

I’m appreciative she became aware of me and builds me up with positive support. I find her building herself to be a beacon of light to others. Feeling her heart yearn to be better only fuels my own desires to do the same. Seeing the joys we both find in common filled with authentic feelings exchanged.

My joy of running is never hindered by her presence in my life. Only to find her running the same area on a different path. Where the alley meets the curb and the next street is your only sign. The day we bumped arms was a day full of divine. Not out of need or lost in desire our souls begin to spiral. But as you run your way, I’ll see you again. A story to tell and some fame to claim.

Forcing partners to learn too much, too fast can also be a risk  for your honeymoon phase. So living with each other to soon and 24/7 contact is a huge change from what you are used to. The vibrations will be felt and covered with acceptance for a length of time. Until the time frustration outweighs the ability of your acceptance. But that won’t happen with us, cause we have started so slow. We got time and I love to see our hearts shine.

Forever True

Naturopathic Paladin

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Falling in love will increase neuronal activity in the areas of the brain associated with pleasure — the very same ones that activate with cocaine use. Using this knowledge to understand that love is a drug and the come down is the worst. That person we had in our lives every day is gone and left you needing a fix. A feeling that every soul on this earth will have a chance to feel. We all have lost someone they love to the worldly challenges a relationship faces.

Let’s face the facts about most of us and no one has a good track record for keeping a relationship. So to expect someone to stay with you forever is quite out of the picture with our modern-day lifestyle. Seeing most relationships last only 2-3 years before they crumble unless they get married or have a good understanding. Life is an experience and you don’t have to sleep with everyone you start seeing. Try to be a persons friend and you will last longer in their lives. Its experiences that we share that build the relationship most try to jump into.

I seek the wisdom of those over 5-6 years with a partner and would love you to comment tricks. how long you waited to move in together? General timelines for sex, i love you, etc that you can think of.

But its been a few months and that one you thought was forever starts not talking to you as much. The fire seemed to die down and all the ash is left. Feels as if the love you started to form went up in smoke and your alone sitting in the ashes.

All people have a choice in the first 6 months of seeing someone if they want to stay with them. Sometimes the incentives we offer up freely don’t attract what we think we want. They attract what we need to have happen to us. The problem is now your hurt and gonna have some walls towards the next guy. That’s where your fear will bring about that same pattern in every relationship till you see the pattern. Identify the fear and release it.

Learn to use the owl totem to help see past people’s masks. See that sometimes people are just selfish and don’t express their true emotions. They say what they think others want to hear in order to please their surroundings cause they in turn are not happy with life. Gotta love life and be infectious with your love. Finding a soul that is really happy and not gonna feed off your happiness is tricky.
I always build my life up for us and remember to keep doing it even when I meet a pretty distraction. We are all meant for our own destinations. When we get off path and become focused on the wrong thing or person. We can only hope the universe ends it before it does more damage than teaches. Let your spiritual development be your goal of your life thru all your trials. Know that if an influence is not good for your spirit, the guides will help you remove it.
  Fall in love every time. Over and over again and again. Even when it hurts and scares you silly. Because the benefits in life outweigh the risks. Because it’s beautiful and fun and painful and terrifying, and totally worth it
 I am fond of a saying I heard about a blast long ago that shattered my soul into thousands of pieces. They reached the farthest depths of space. Coming to form peice at a time in each new soul that I am destined to meet. Finding a little piece of my soul in everyone that I love. Some have had bigger parts, but all have a connection to my heart.