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The goose reminds us that we often reach out to those we love, whether peers or family. When  we do this we must be sure that this is the choice we wish to make. Look deep into our hearts and see the truth we need to see. Do not start something you do not intend to finish.

When you see the goose, life is gonna take an abrupt change for a moment, do not fret. It will come back to its path.wp-image-2116412784jpg.jpg

If the goose is your spirit animal, you will often make sacrifices for the whole of the family. basing your choices off of what’s best for the family.

You believe that there is one special person for everyone out there and you will make a devoted and attentive spouse.

You ultimate manifestation is a good life for your family.

wp-image-855155809jpg.jpgMost times seeing a goose is a good sign of long companionship .

Strange when I see this animal and I take 3 days to write about it and its spot on for my emotions this week.

Darn.. next time I will look it up that day!

Believe in our universe and It talks to me..

A few times now I have seen the end to something before it ever came to pass. I took in a deep breath and enjoyed it. The smell of the ocean and the mist at my face. Savour those moments to the end. You never know when it will end.

I fell asleep to your cry and still to this day sometimes I wonder why? I thought I was learning what it takes to be a father, instead the path of a man.  That night we held him in our arms, never did I think that would be the last. The purest of memories in my mind, the moment of the riches joys. To look into her eyes and see my son’s reflection. At the time I could have savoured this moment more.  I unfortunately live with this regret.

The band-aide of choice was to honor every moment as if it was my last. My full attention and concentration whenever I noticed I was slacking. Difficult for a ADHD kid at times, but thru time I have seen mass progression. Deepening the bond I have to offer to others.

The Sun was setting on the stern as we headed back to dock for the season. Oh the mist was so refreshing when it  hit my face. I had just raised the tuna poles and securing them tightly with the well worn rope. The soot from the exhausted covered my hands, I felt like it would be my last for a while, so I took another deep breath. My exhale was appreciation for this experience. What a wild ride this life has thrown at me and I am still standing here in a crow’s nest 30 ft off the water.

I like to think God puts us thru trials and we fail. We fail alot, repeatedly over and over again because we are stuck in our ways, fear change, but envy it. GET BACK UP...HEARD IN THE back of my head.  This repeated failure built the author of this post up from some dense ashes. I was lost in my own world of confusion trying to find a cure in all the wrong places. Then a random stranger who became brother introduced me to God right when I needed it. Someone to talk to….

His family opened their arms to me and at times,  I let them down like a son. But they taught me  my failures are my challenges and my challenges are my goals.  Mike and Diane will forever hold a special spot in my heart for introducing me to a saviour. The path I was walking was a dark suicidal. Scared to share for fear of repercussions. They LOVED me unconditionally and supported me with anything I ever wanted to do. They offered me rides to church every Sunday for Mass, Wednesday for class and every group event in between. A place to stay and tons of work. So blessed to experience them and have some formal introduction to God. Even if in the end I am just talking to myself at night. Its working…

As I reach my goals I run alongside others who are racing thru this universe, but I feel alone at times. I am blessed to have a healthy balance of friendship in my life. Those friends held me at my worst and praised me at best. Many tried to help and connect with me, but I pushed you away at times to hide in my solitude.I felt like I was a burden upon others and felt safe alone. Covering my emotions with hobbies, study, business.

When your alone, the voices come out to play. These voices try to play with me  from time to time now, but I have tools now to combat them. WE NEED QUIET ALONE TIME TO FEEL THOSE VOICES.  It’s amazing what life offers you when you keep in the back of your mind, someone is looking out for you. The Tone of the voice changes from a negative to a positive vibe. Encouraging and supportive. Let that new tone be God, Jesus, Buddha, Mohammed, The Universe, Your higher self or Ricky Bobby. It truly does help to just have some faith in something, not to mention yourself.

Don’t let me kid you or display my avatar “LAMBO” or fancy heal yourself blog. I can barely focus to type with the tears in my eyes. I had to stop proofreading to control myself and maintain. I have posted alot on this blog over the last 3 years and this is by far the toughest one to share. The most emotions I have allowed myself to feel in a long time. Did not even notice It was building up momentum inside of me.

Each year is different for me and always hits me at a angle I was not covering or prepared for. Once again left alone by choice in confusion and aloneness. These are the times I learn from my God the most. My son was was an angel sent here as my wake up call. Without the event taking place, would I be who I am now? I don’t think so. I was a stubborn boy who needed a powerful event to change my ways. That it did.

The military definitely taught me to maintain/Conceal my emotions. When you’re responsible or leading others in the military you have to keep it TOGETHER for the sake of the team. This is great character traits when your the man of the house. As long as you know how to open up to someone you confide in. Cons I have learned are bottling things up and cause long term mental issues if not SELF-TREATED. Not medicated, but thru self-awareness and evaluations. AKA  a journal.

I don’t think a journal is something that just works with a few people.I think only a few people are willing to make a journal work.

 

This was a tuff blog post write and I feel so much better now that I could share this with you. The things I do are not required, but they have helped me, maybe they will help you.

 

Be Strong for others

Colton

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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How hard are you working?

Posted: February 27, 2017 in Self-Help, Self-Love
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Life is so short… work your butt off

Today As I got a haircut, I saw a gray hair fall on my  pant leg… I did not know what to think.

My thoughts raced around like a bubbly little boy and then it clicked. I earned that gray hair. I might have got in while having patience for others. Maybe when I was training my dog and he was so stubborn. However It got there, I earned it.

As you go thru life, can you say that about yourself? Do you work your butt off every day and focus on your goals?  Strive to be that individual that shines and turns heads when they walk in. Its confidence that glows so bright for the world to see.  Have faith in yourself and this will encourage others to have faith in themselves.

Change the world, or be changed by the world

Noticing the changes

Posted: February 22, 2017 in joy, love, Self-Help, Self-Love
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Living out our lives day by day and hour by hour. We dont see our changes that happen daily within our soul until we get that chance. That chance to have something to compare it too… difficult concept. Comparing yourself to a prior self and being able to notice the changes. Don’t ever compare yourself to others use yourself as a reference. 

How the heck do we look at ourselves in that prior mindset with the mindset we currently have? 

I believe we have two options and maybe more. But the ones that have worked for me so far;

Journaling — this gives me something to look back upon seeing a date and time remembering my emotions then. Most of the time when I use this method I end up staring at what I wrote and just off shocked where my mindset was at the time. After doing this several times I realized just how crazy I am. Sometimes it’s best to Journal and not let the world be exposed to things you can handle in your own mind.

Outside Support—  I recently had a chance to spend time with somebody who’s known me almost going on a decade. All the things my friend told me of the way I’ve acted in the past leave me in awe and shock. Disappointed in my prior self, but proud of this new me. When somebody who cares has known you a long time you can use this resource to better yourself. Ask them things that you could do to be a better person or better the relationship. Learn to vocalize your needs and emotions in a productive manner.


Cant do it all alone

We cant do this thing called life alone. Even with the Journaling tool. We still have a need to connect, a need to be understood, a need to feel wanted and appreciated. We can appreciate ourselves and we should!  But when someone else does it, it creates magic in my heart. Sparks a fire and ignites my world.  Do you let those around you know how appreciated they are? Make sure they do. Sometimes we forget to tell them and assume they know. As humans… we need to express that to each other.

Be open

When you ask for someones opinion. Keep in mind. That is THIER opinion. You can not argue with a opinion of someone. That is theirs to keep and mold as they please. We all have that right in life. But their opinion does not have to become your own. We have the power to better our selves and only the few will ever take advantage of that. When you start noticing the transition from boy to man or girl to woman.. You can take pride in your changes. Taking pride will boost self confidence and keep you grounded when others attempt to untack you from your goals. Be strong and vigilant as well transgress through our day!  

The Rough Sculpts the Spirit

So many rough things we go thru in life as humans. We learn to love as we hurt others in the process. We learn to forgive the trespasses others take upon us. We begin to learn to live a rich life. For many, this process takes a lifetime and die bitter sweet before ever understanding. Understanding our joys and needs. Separating them from our wants and desires.

True Friends

When you walk in a room and see a old friend, what is the reaction? Did they jump for joy and welcome you with open arms? If so, thats a person you need in your life. That is a person who will build you up and understand  why you do things. A friend who is not afraid to let you know when you are making a mistake. We all need to strive to be that good person in someone’s life. The joy you will feel from being a good friend is limitless… endless.

Relationships

What about relationships? What about them? Same concept as a friend. Wouldn’t you want the same qualities that makes a good friend in a lover? Someone to listen to your crazy ideas and future goals. I can only speak from a male perspective but my heart sings when that girl looks me in the eye and smiles. It sings when I catch her looking at me out of the corner of her eye. Oh but my heart roars when she glides her fingers thru my hair. When you feel like the only 2 in the room and it’s almost rude. They way she asks me about my day, and questions no one has ever asked. When she makes me feel like I am the only man she has ever loved. When you meet a woman like this, you realised you never loved another.

Equally Yoked

If you’re a high achiever and always strive for success and personal satisfaction. Your fueled by the joy you receive from witnessing the fruits of your labors. THEN YOU MUST find someone who is equally yoked. They must have goals, ambitions and determination. If one is more than other, a issue will arise. Neediness of one will overwhelm the ambitious other. One can work to just get by or both can work to have more than enough.

Don’t Be afraid of Love

Love and love again. Why? Because it’s beautiful, amazing, terrifying and a rush of everything in between. You won’t get those feelings from anything else in life. We love fast many times and blame that failure upon love. No we need not blame anyone.  No one is offered a class in school on how a person should love. We learn off what we are exposed to. We ALL become better lovers with time and experience. It is very unfortunate that we learn at the expense of others feelings. But that seems to be the only way to learn. Quit Denying YOURSELF because of fear… Fear will Age you, fear will hold you back every time.

Communication

Seems now days that we can not be honest with our feelings. It scares those who don’t hear it very often. If I am interested in someone, I do enjoy the chase. But am getting to old for games, too old not to express myself when I feel something. I feel like I need to do this to test the maturity of the relationship. I don’t want myself or my partner to feel trapped in a world where their opinion does not matter. I would only want to be with someone who has ideas and different view point she can share. Life would be so boring if I made all the rules. Can we all work to be more open and not confuse that openness to being needy or desperate? Just because someone opens their heart to you does not mean they are desperate.

Can you talk to you friend without judgement? Can you see and feel their emotions and know that they are listening? These people are rare, they are not set out to prove anything. Many brilliant people listen more than they speak and we seem to not see this detail. Open those ears and  earn some respect from your friend. Let them know that it’s not a waste of time to talk about their issues.

Just do you

Did he or she just get overwhelmed by your presence or over compliments? I think so…

In these times when we are unsure of the outcome of a friendship or relationship we should just always resort back to just being ourselves. Keep pushing yourself to your next level. If they were interested now, they will be in the future. Keep building your life and life will happen for you. The tools will come into play for your joys to be revealed. Sometimes with that person or without that person. Friendships are relationships and relationships should be a friendship. Find that friend and don’t let them go. Time is all we need…

Seeing your Joys

Do you smile when a baby smiles at you? I believe that is the purest form of joy. Nothing more beautiful than a innocent childs smile. Play attention when you smile and feel those emotions. Those are key moments when your spirit is trying to talk to you. Its trying to tell you what will bring you joy. Take note to those minor details. Do you start laughing uncontrollably when a certain friend is around and tells you stories? Another Key moment… Hold on to those people who bring you joy… Those people will be there to pick you up when you fall.

Be thankful for EVERYTHING

I want to end this blog post with appreciation. If you are not thankful for the things and events that transpired in your life, good or bad. It will probably happen again, and again.. Until you learn. Then magically it is gone… We don’t notice when things go right, only pay heed when all is lost. Be thankful for the moments we share with others.. It may be the last you ever see them. Hold that kiss like it the last one you are ever going to receive, sometimes it is. Take a deep breath  and enjoy life with a thankful heart.

Those rough things we went thru, they made us who we are. They had to happen for something else great to happen. We had to learn the hard way for some reason or another. But those trials will give us the strength to lead others who have not experienced such a loss. Be an inspiration to others as they marvel  in your strength.

When all is lost and you can’t go anymore…

Know that someone, somewhere on this earth, loves you unconditionally.